If you want to run, run a mile. If you want to experience a different life, run a marathon. Emil Zatopek
I include this picture of Emil Zatopek for 2 reaons: A) he is one of the greatest runners ever and I like this quote. B) I like to think I look like Shalane Flanagan when I run, while I fear after mile 7 I instead resemble a male Czeckoslavakian marathoner.
It has taken me nearly two weeks to write about Eugene. I had to let the race experience sit for a minute (or two). I needed to re-establish my running routine. I needed to get an excellent massage (thank you fellow Eugene finisher Willow at Inner Elements) and work my IT band on my roller.
Mostly, I needed to stop procrastinating.
My expectations about this race were few; I wanted to finish and I wanted to maintain a positive outlook while running. I understood Eugene would be a different experience than Chicago six months previous. Chicago was about redemption. Behind every training run loomed the memory of my last ill-fated and uncompleted marathon, my health tale-of-woe. It was big city, big money (for me - hotel, air tickets, etc. - I'm not a big spender by necessity, people), do this thing right. During the race I was so focused on my time that truly I have little memory of the unbelievable neighborhoods we ran through. And for that, I PRd. I love Chicago.
I went into Eugene with a whole different mindset and a just a little bit of denial. We trained, but we slacked as well. And two days before the race, you could find me having a beer or three at Fire on the Mountain with my husband. Like I said, denial.
Morgan and I left Portland Saturday afternoon, a cooler picnic of goodies stacked in her Subaru, too many running outfits in each of our bags. It was lovely not to have to worry about airplane fees. The weather was perfect - sunshine, high 60s. The drive from Portland to Eugene is a little over 100 miles, all beautiful green fields and rolling mountains.
We arrived at our hotel in Springfield around 3:00. We had both been remiss about finding a hotel until about a week before the marathon. Again, denial played a part, but I also mistakenly assumed that Eugene, a small city of a little over 100,000 people, would have plenty of hotels to accommodate a marathon of 8000. I mean, all those people go down to see the Ducks play during football season, right? They must have somewhere to stay, right? Right?
Wrong. Morgan called 7 hotels before finding one that had a vacancy. When we arrived, they had one room left and the lady at the front desk told us the person before us (a fellow marathoner) had been to 17 different hotels before getting a room. I would have given up and slept in my car. It seems that not only was the marathon happening that weekend, but also the Spring Game and a tattoo convention. When told this, Morgan and I nodded our heads like we knew what the Spring Game was. I follow some NFL, as I'm from New England and my father is a genuine and in-this-order Patriots/Celtics/Bruins/Red Sox fan. However, I went to a small liberal arts school on the border of New York City, partially chosen due to its lack of a Greek system and sports teams. I hold no allegiance to college sports and couldn't tell you a thing about the Ducks other than they have some wacky uniforms. After several years living in Oregon I should recognize how devoted their true fans are. Sping Game = spring scrimmage and it had a record turnout this year. Note to self.
Eugene is not all football, though. There's also hippies. And beer! Spread out and dominated by the U of O, the city itself has the slatternly look of most boozy college towns. Nice homes are mixed in with places that look like meth houses but are, most likely, continuous college rentals or frat houses. There are some good restaurants, an excellent brewery (Ninkasi, oh how I love thee) and a mediocre one (Steelhead, but they serve food and they have outside tables).
After we checked into our hotel, we headed down to the expo to pick up our race packets. A little info about race expos - they terrify me. In Portland, they're held at the downtown Hilton. To get inside one has to walk an IKEA-type maze with people in front and behind. All I can ever think is, "Don't yell fire. Don't yell fire." I don't know why. And Chicago - Chicago was 45000 people. Nuf said.
Eugene by comparison was lovely. I'm sure it had everything to do with the small number of people, but we drove and easily found free parking by the downtown Hilton. Inside the pickup was organized and easy. We decided to eat the pasta dinner, again for simplicity's sake. The food was fine, plentiful, and we sat with a man whose father and grandfather had driven all the way from Ohio to cheer him on. It was heartwarming.
Meb Keflezighi was the guest speaker at the expo.
I am a big Meb fan, have been ever since I watched him win the ING NYC marathon in 2009. Meb is the first [US] man to win a medal (silver) in the Olympic marathon since Frank Shorter won in 1972. He was really interesting to listen to. Genuine, humble, and grateful for both his ability and his success, he spoke about family and his training. On his OFF days, he runs 10 miles a day. From the sounds of it, he runs a marathon at least once a week in training so that during an actual race he knows "I just have to do it faster." It sounds so simple, doesn't it? I thought often of his talk while running the next day.
Morgan and I turned in early after the expo, watched bad tv, and tried to ignore the cigarette smoke drifting in from the rooms on either side of our discount motel. Other than logistics (time we planned to get up, coffee, etc.), we did not discuss the next day. Again, denial. And instead of my usual pre-race insomnia, I slept. It was as if I had not only convinced my brain I wasn't really running 26.2 miles the next day, I had convinced my body. Poor thing.
At 4:45, Morgan and I were up . By 5:30, we pulled up to Dutch Brothers to get some caffeine.
ASIDE: If you are ordering coffee first thing in the morning from a lone, obviously overwhelmed gal at a Dutch Brothers and there are four cars behind you and two cars at the other window waiting to be served, DON'T F%$ING ORDER ANYTHING BUT COFFEE. I feel a lot of love for marathon runners of all types. But I focused all my nervous pre-race energy into irrational rage directed at the matching sparkly pink-spandex ladies who ordered 5 frozen coffee drink concoctions plus some sort of caramel espresso thing, forcing everyone to wait a good 15 minutes for their order to be completed. You all are the equivalent of corral bumrushers and I am done with you.
Upon finally getting our medium coffees (2 minutes. 2 flipping minutes - ok, now I am done) we drove to the Valley River Center, where we parked for free, used the bathroom, and got on the readily available shuttles that left every 5 minutes for the marathon starting area. The start/finish line were at basically the same place - Hayward Field. The weather was perfect - low 50s.
Morgan and I were both in corral 1. To me, waiting in the corral is the longest part of the race. I get cold and start yawning, all nerves, although not so much this time. This time, I decided I was just going to see how I felt. Morgan said, "It's all about feel for me. Not time."
The gun went and we were off. There's nothing quite like the flow of a marathon. I heard an onlooker say as we went by, "There's a sound to it!" And he's right - there is. Not just footsteps, either - it's the sound of concentrated motion.
I found my rhythm early and stayed with it. Unlike Chicago, I decided not bust out too fast. It's a hard decision early on - I feel so good, should I go with it? Or do I hold back, knowing that later I will need this reserve but I'm not going to feel this kind of energy? It's a decision that could have dire (timewise) consequences. Bust out too early and nothing will be left at the end. Don't give yourself enough rope and you'll finish knowing you could have run faster.
Or just run.
That's what I decided to do. I stepped into the 3:35 pace group and stayed with them. After one or two miles we melded into a cohesive group. Initially, people talked. It happens in marathons, though I'm not one to participate. Training runs, yes, most times I like to chat, but races I believe the energy diverted to conversing should be directed to the matter at hand.
People recognized each other and said hi. People encouraged one another. People asked about splits. The half marathon and the full ran together until about the 10 mile mark, but few people seemed to be aware of that. I'll admit I looked forward to the split, not because I don't respect the 1/2 marathoners (13.1 miles is still 13.1 miles and props to you for running it), but because it would mean more leg room. Though not elbow to elbow, in my experience all races start out a little tight until people find their comfort zone. At the 10 mile (I think) point, the 1/2 marathoners peeled off and the race noticeably thinned out.
I kept running.
There was a hill at the 8 mile mark, but for the most part the course was flat. It wound through town and then back towards Hayward field. We left the roads at points and headed into parks, sticking to bike trails and listening to the river. It was beautiful. The crowds were sparse but the volunteers were wonderful.
At certain points, I felt like I had the course to myself. Such a rarity in a marathon.
At mile 18, I felt the physical presence of The Wall. I fell to the back of the pace group and didn't fight it, nor did I fight myself. Internally, I made a deal: I will not beat myself up. Sounds cheesy, I know. But I have spent marathons and other races berating myself and my faults. Long-distance running is isolation and movement, two elements that can hum my tired mind into a three-hour mantra of negativity. This time, I decided it would be different.
It was. When my mind wanted to leap ahead - "Great, mile 19. That means you still have 7.2 miles to go." I stopped it. I thought, "We're just jogging now. That's all we're doing. We're jogging." I don't know why that particularly phrase worked, but it did. I could deal with jogging. Racing, running - the Rs weren't working for me. But I could get my tight hips to jog. When I lost sight of the pace group, I let it go. I didn't think about who I was letting down. In fact, and just go with me on this because it is a little schmaltzy, I thought about Meb Keflezighi and his speech at the expo the evening before. I'm paraphrasing, but he said during the last ING NY Marathon (2011) he thought he would not finish. Leg cramps, foot pain, and he had lost the lead pack. At mile 17, having hit The Wall, he started taking stock of his life and the people who had gotten him to that point. Instead of thinking, "I will disappoint these people with my terrible finish," he thought, "I am so grateful that these people are in my life and have gotten me here." Totally different perspective, and it got him to the end of the race and to a PR.
To me, that story is the difference between looking at the ground while running and looking up at the world around - your body goes where your eyes tell it. No need to go into lots of details, but I told my body 20 minutes of positive thoughts. I got my legs moving, got my hands high-fiving little kids as I ran by, got me over my Wall and to mile 23. And by mile 23, I always feel I can do anything.
The last three miles were through small paths behind Hayward field, past a baseball field, and then onto the street and into the stadium. By that point, most everyone is running on their own, no double-up, no crowd save for the onlookers cheering in the stands. That is the joy of a small marathon. It was a beautiful day - short-sleeved shirt (tied my long-sleeved around me by mile 3), sunshine streaming down. Not a PR race ( I clocked in at 3:43:42) but not all of them are. It was a great race with a great friend. And once again I learned that no matter how many times I run 26.2 miles, it is always a one-of-a-kind experience.
Steelhead brewery after the race, Morgan and I. To the victors, the spoils.